11 pounds!!!! WOOO HOOOOO

I am already down 11 pounds! Yaaaaaaa-Freaking-Hoooooooo!!! I wasn't gonna weigh my self this morning but I gave in. I met my first goal of 10 lbs. now I am almost at my 2nd goal of being under 300 lbs. only 4 pounds to go!

Seeing the weight come off is just the motivation I need. I am so stoked about it! I need to keep pushing myself everyday because it's obviously working!

A friend of mine asked me the other day why I was so comfortable posting my weight on the Internet for everyone to see. I had to chuckle! I am not a shy person. I am a big girl! Not proud of it but its who I am. But not who I will always be. I never want to be this big ever again! I am thankful for the support of my AMAZING husband and friends! Thank you all for believing in me!

Just keep swimming....

What a week this has been! I am exhausted! Still doing great on my diet just trying to get more exercise in. It would help if the weather was nicer. Too cold and wet to do anything. I want to try and drop another 5-10 lbs. before the end of the month. I go back to the fertility specialist on the 28th and really want to have lost more weight before I see the Dr again. Hoping she will start me on some magic pills. It's hard to believe we have been trying for over 2 1/2 years and have nothing to show for it. I don't think people realize how emotionally devastating infertility is. I wish people were more compassionate about it.

Woo hoo

Lost 7 pounds!! Still have over 100lbs more to lose but I am on my way! I was really active this weekend so I am sure that helped! Saturday Harry and I went on a hike around Hagg Lake. Wasn't a huge hike but enough to get my heart pumping. Sunday we wanted to do a different hike but instead took advantage of the nice weather to get some much needed yard work done. I am paying for that today. I have muscles hurting that I didn't even knew I had. But its a great feeling! Hoping to make it to the gym tonight and get a good work out in.

On to week number two! My goals for this week is to drink more water and get to the gym more. Even if its only for 30 mins. I can do this!!!!

sigh...

I am having one of those "I don't give a shit days" There is always some new kind of stress to deal with. Trying to find the motivation to go to the gym but it must be hiding from me. By the time I get off from work I am just to tired to do anything. Between finances, work, personal shit and other random crap I am drained! I know working out will help with my energy but I just can't seem to do it!

Really hoping that we can get out of the house this weekend, rain or shine and do something. I want to go on a hike but the weather might interfere! Really can't wait till Spring/Summer! First weigh in is on Tuesday I know I prolly didn't lose much cause I haven't worked out at all, but I am hoping for a couple pounds. (Fingers crossed)

It's a new dawn, It's a new day, It's a new life....for me!!

Feeling rather chipper this morning. So far my day is off to a good start, but then again it is only 8am. Didn't make it to the gym last night as I was so exhausted from working late. All I wanted to do was get comfy and crawl into bed. Slept so good last night but woke up with the dreaded feeling of... oh shit!! I am on a Diet now!!! I need to start changing the way I think about it. Not so much a diet but a life style change. I am at my heaviest ever.. A whopping 314.4 lbs!!! YIKES!!

I found myself googling "weight loss success pictures" so I can see what others have accomplished. Someday that will be me!!! As my friend dory would say... Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming!!

Back on the wagon......AGAIN!

Well here we are again... back to square one. I feel like I am always ending up back here. I can never commit to something and follow through. I ALWAYS fail! Not anymore. I am back on track and more willful then ever! I plan to see my weight loss journey through to the end. I realized how many excuses I had for myself. Literally TONS! I am trying to change my mindset to think more positively about my goals, be a more positive person, Strive to be the best person I can be. It's hard.. I am not gonna lie. I find myself feeding off of other negative people in my life and it just brings me down. I know I am worth the effort. I owe it to myself, to my husband and my future babies :)

My last attempt at "Dieting" was doing the Atkins... FAIL! I love my carbs. I am a true carboholic! Bread, potatoes, pasta, Rice (thanks to my Hawaiians) so attempting that again is just crazy. I've had success on Weight watchers in the past, so I am going to venture that way once more. I am excited as I have a few works ladies joining me. I am hoping that having someone else go through this with me I will have a better shot at success (fingers crossed)

So this is it... starting weight watchers tomorrow and the Gym tonight. Wish me luck.

A few weeks in and I am already seeing a change

I started Atkins a few weeks ago and WOW, what an improvement it has made. Its amazing how much energy I have and how I dont constantly need to eat to satisfy myself. I am down 26 pounds and dropped 2 pant sizes. This is so crazy! I can do this.... I know I can. I have never felt so confident about any diets I have been on.

I'm not gonna lie and say its been an easy start.. It's so hard. Temptations are facing me every minute of the day. I miss my carbs, but I know this is going to be a great life changing experiance! I am sure I will have my moments of weekness but its up to me to get thru them and not let them set me back.

The gym is a whole different story.... I have to make myself go. For me the reason is I just dont like to work out in front of people. I feel so out of place in a gym full of fit people. But the way I see it is, that could be me soon. I try to push myself each day I go to the gym, either by doing an extra 10 minutes on the treadmill or trying a new exercise. But I know this exercise stuff will get easier as the weight continues to melt off of me.

I am so excited to be under 300 lbs! Yea that's right.. I was over 300lbs for prolly the last 5-7 years. I have exactly 8 weeks till we go to Hawaii... I dont wanna be that Fat chick who has to ask for a seat belt extention on the plane. I want to be able to sit down and buckle up and be able to put my tray down with out my stomach devouring it.

Tommorw is my weigh in... I am hoping to see another dramatic decline on the scale, but if not its ok because I can see the changes on my body. I just need to keep going and going and going.

I am so excited about my new journey and I hope this inspires others to get up and get moving, eat healthier and be better!